Proof my grandma speaks to me

So last Saturday night I had a dream about Margaret. Not sure why but I found out during the week that she had her baby on Sunday. To me this is finally the proof I've been lQQking for that my grandma still watches over and communicates with me, in essense, still seeks a relationship with me. I think of this as very comforting because she's always been a big part of my life.

Anyway, I lost the lb I gained back last week due to falling off the wagon for about a week and half. I got back on (again) and fordged forward and here I am again at 148.2. Guessing my body likes that number! Wendy joined today too!

148.2 MY LOWEST WEIGHT YET

nooowwww let's see if I can lose a few more to get to my personal goal and if I can maintain this! whoo-hoo.

The butt bone.....

Okay... since losing weight, I of course lost any trace of any fat that was in my butt area.... my butt is sooooo darn boney, I hate it! So the other morning I'm laying in bed and I'm sort of curled up and Tim looks over and says "lQQk there is your butt bone" OMG kill me. I can't lose fat from my middle but you can see my butt bone! geez.

And there it was... the Christmas poo!

geez... okay.. two weeks ago I maintained at WW which is strange for me BUT, I had TOM and had worked out harder etc. Then last week I came within .4 of a lb to goal... I stayed for the meeting, went to work out, got home, and sure as shit (FOR REAL) there it was, the 5lb Christmas poo rearing it's ugly head of course only 3 hours late! Sure I could have made goal last week which made me more dertermined to make it this week. I worked out just as hard this week, watched my points, tried to stay away from sugar & eat all my veggies and fruits....went to weigh in this am and BAM I'm down 1lb... just a single lonely pound BUT the pound that made the entire difference in the world. As I stood there the leader just continued writing down my information and I finally spoke up and said "I made goal" and she said "you did?" YUP, READ EM AND WEAP BABY! 149.4 to be exact! Whoo-hooo! I left my meeting in better spirits that last week and went home and just a few minutes ago just 45 minutes after I weighed in... there he was.... the Christmas poo! grrrr!

Eating OVER points is hard work!

I came home from my WW meeting on Saturday and wanted to splurge a bit seeing as how I use all my flexies on Sat/Sun. I looked around the kitchen and couldn't even find any crap sugar cereal. I think the only high point easy food we had was peanut butter and I'm not a HUGE fan on pb. I like it, but it's just not something I would look for as a splurge item. So the weekend continued like that, me trying to find something high in points for me to eat to use up all those flexies. I actually had to go out to the store and buy a Pepperage Farm cake! I ate 1/4 of the cake for 10 points. Then I had a burrito from my fav mexican restaurant and could only manage to eat half! I'm such a loser! lol! I just came to the realization that my house might actually be point proof!

4 months of damage = 6 weeks of hard work!

I let myself go from August to January 2nd as I've talked about here. I had to lose around 7-8lbs from that 4 month eating binge and today I thought I was back at 150.... NO SUCK LUCK! I'm 150.4..... so hopefully next week I'll be under 150 and I can start maintenance and hopefully I'll make lifetime the first week of April! I'm really excited.

Anyway.... last night I had a knock at my door and it was Heidi next door.... she flashed me a smile and waved her hand at me.... THEY'RE ENGAGED!!! Whoo-hoo after 6 years of being together he popped the question! I was so happy for them both!

Back to the drawing board......

Okay... I started back full fledge to Weight Watchers on 1/2. I bought the season pass which is basically a $149 fee to go to WW meetings from 1/1 until 4/29. I figured if I bought it, that it would force me to attend meetings and be accountable. The first weigh in I wore normal clothes, had eaten like a hog the last few weeks before, and had gotten my period that morning... I figured what the heck because no matter what I'm going to be over my goal weight I acheived in August, AND I have to at least be 5 lbs over 155 because I you have to at least lose 5 lbs to be able to do maintenance and then be a lifetime WW member. My personal goal will be 140 allthough I will get to my goal, begin maintenance and try to lose only a little each week to eventually make my personal goal of 140. This way as long as I don't go over 152 I'll still be considered a "lifetime" member. Okay okay, it's cheating the system, BUT, life happens, birthday's happen, celebrations happen, holidays happen, etc. Yes, it is very possible to eat sensibly during all those, but I'd rather not spend the ENTIRE rest of my life 24/7 worrying about each morsel....... those 12lbs I have to work with will be my saving grace.

Okay... so I went to my first weigh in on Saturday (long story but I basically couldn't go the first Saturday because I had already weighed in the first week and I had to wait for the next calendar week).... so I hop up on the scale and I'm back at GOOD 'OL 153.8! 6.6lb loss... okay probably not really, not with regular clothes on (I usually weigh in in workout pants and a t-shirt not a heavy sweater and jeans), TOM, and all that extra water weight from my holiday binge...... Anyway... so I'm thinking that half of that was a REAL loss... so 3.3 lbs!!! WHOOO-HOOO that's still good for 10 days! :)

Tim has also decided to start WW although he refuses to join a meeting. I did the same thing at the beginning. I wanted to make sure that I could "live" with the program before joining. That worked out well for me because a week in I was hooked. He is doing VERY well and on day 5 he had lost 5 lbs! Not so bad. I think he's finding it a fun challenge to figure out what he can eat, what foods are better for him and/or less points, and using everything that he's absorbed from me as tools to learn how to put the WW puzzle together. He would like to lose around 50lbs which would be perfect for him!

Also along with me for the ride are a 3 girls from my neighborhood. Carolyn, Pam, and Kristie. Also my workout partner Julie (Jules) decided to hop aboard. She had mentioned it but I wasn't sure if she was 100% and one day she said "I'll meet you at the WW meeting on Monday" whoo-hoo... so I've got a little WW possie going!

GO ME!

"GO ME" my new life motto!

My cousin is currently moving from Hawaii to Korea (her husband is military) so she stayed in Chicago from October (when her house sold) to just Thursday. Her brother is also military and is currently in Iraq so she wanted to be home for the holidays for the sake and sanity of her mother. Anyway, she had her 2 kids here Roman 2 and Reilly 4. Her brother came home for 2 weeks during her stay and had a rare opportunity to spend some quality time with his beloved niece and nephew. His 2 year old nephew speaks half English, some Korean, and a little Roman so most of the time if you listen you can figure out what he's saying. Anytime Roman's Uncle Danny would pick him up and rough house with him or tickle him Roman would yell "GO ME" as in "let go of me!". It was so cute. We went out drinking and hung out a ton while Danny was in town and our group motto is now "GO ME". It's an awesome motto because it can mean so much and with me starting WW again on Monday and knowing I CAN DO IT, all I have to say is "go me".

I'm starting back to WW on Monday the 2nd. I'm so excited because 2 girls from my neighborhood are going with me AND my workout partner! I'm buying a winter pass that is good from 1/1 to 4/29. This way I'm forced to continue meetings and be accountable!

HAUNTED by old habits and effects.....

Well these last couple weeks I've been eating HORRIBLY and of course Saturday night it all came crashing down on me. I felt so tired like I used to all the time. I never noticed any energy changes while losing weight, but now that I look back..... yeah I used to be tired all the time. I couldn't even get up to change into pj's on Saturday night. It was really bad. I don't want to feel like that. It was so strange because it was like one of those feelings you could almost touch and didn't want to touch. It was such a bad feeling inside me.

Danny came home on Saturday at 4:20!!! It was great. I had the boys and we all piled into the car, picked up some balloons, drove to the airport and waited for him. We got there about 5 minutes before his flight landed. We were allowed to get gate passes so we could meet him as soon as he stepped off the plane. We had signs and banners that Auntie Kathie and Heather had made and I brought the balloons. It was so great to see him. My mom and dad also met us at the airport and then we all went back to Auntie Kathie's and had pizza and just hung out and talked! It was so awesome! He looked really good, very healthy, and happy to be home and be with family. It was a great day.

Groundhog day came early for me this season!

BODY IMAGE VS BRAIN = PROBLEM SOLVED!!

After buying those few outfits for myself at NY & Co and some new jeans I finally get to feel fun, thin, sexy every day. Those 2 extra pairs of jeans really helped because now there isn't really a day that I'm wearing my old baggies around. So I'm feeling like a groundhog where I used to come out and even though I was thinner I was seeing myself with this bigger shadow. Now I'm starting to see what I look like now. It's really cool because I'll be working out and catch a glimpse in the mirror of myself and get really impressed with myself and my new shape. It's really an eye opening experience! I love it. I now LOVE LOVE LOVE clothes shopping and even yesterday at Wal-Mart I was checking out tops and stuff.

I started counting points again last Friday because I really need to get these lbs off. I was back down to 150, then yesterday morning I weighed in at LWE and was back up at 153.6. I know on Friday I didn't do so good, food day at work, plus cake, plus American/Mexican buffett for dinner, PLUS not drinking enough water. Then yesterday sort of the same. Good breakfast, okay lunch, Sweet Tomatoes for dinner. I did work out so that helps. I think I drank enough water yesterday though.

Went on a Road Rally with Michelle last night. That was fun. Had a headache by the end though!

2 days of GLORY for me!!

Well yesterday I had off for Veterans day and I decided to go to Woodfield to use my Woodfield gift cert from Christmas last year and my New York and Company gift card Wendy got me for my birthday. I was only in the mall for about an hour and half, I bought Tim 2 new pairs of jeans at JcPenney, then I went to NY & Co and had a blast. I had so much fun shopping. I got two pairs of jeans one size 6, one size 8, and two pairs of guacho's which I love with boots and 3 sweaters/tops that I love. Each outfit makes me feel completely adorable/sexy/thin! My sister called me while I was working out to tell me that Michael left her another note and she wanted to go drinking with the girls. So my sister, my cousin Heather, two of my sisters nursing school friends, and myself went out to Gators to have a "few" drinks. Had a good time just hanging out AND I got to show off one of my new outfits! :)

Then today, took Blue to his puppy play date in the morning, didn't have time to get his nails cut so just now I decided to try to do it myself.... AND after much fighting he finally layed down and just let me do it! I had a little parade for him after the whole "good boy" parade! Hey, that's gonna save me $12 each time!

Where have I been?

Wow, I had a birthday in here somewhere and hmmmm what else? Nothing new other than that. I've gained back about 5lbs from my goal weight which sucks, but whatever. I have to get myself back OP because I don't want to have to lose this weight all over. Oh, found another outfit that makes me feel awesome. I got this really pretty slimming black skirt, it's a size 10 (holy cow), from Wal-Mart and I finally got some boots that come up to my high calf on Thursday night. I wore the skirt and boots with a kind of tight pink sweater yesterday and felt amazing in it. Everybody who saw me complemented me on the outfit!

Tim's NEW wife..... HAS ARRIVED!!!

lol, well here I am all buttoned up and beautiful so to speak. Went over to Scott and Tanya's to meet Julia their daughter that was born last Friday (She's a cutie, tons of hair, little 5lb peanut)! When they saw me they couldn't believe how much weight I've lost. Other than at Gary's wedding in July, Tanya saw me at the end of April but Scott probably hasn't seen me in a year or so! Anyway, they called me "Tim's new wife" pretty funny!! A NSV I never had thought of myself as! What will they come up with next???

Do you see me, I don't!!!!

Well I've been having this issue with body image the last couple months. It's basically that it takes time for your brain to catch up with your new body and for you to see how much thinner you really are. I've maintained my goal weight for 3 weeks without counting points for journaling at all! I think that I have truely mastered the balance of food that I can eat without gaining. It's pretty awesome considering I am basically eating what I want including sweets and fast food. It's all about moderation. Well anyway, back to body image... so on the 22nd I was taking my sister for her birthday to a Cubs game. I've had my outfit planned for months. Tim had bought me a boobie shirt (pink Cubs tank top) at one of the first games he went to this season. I promised myself that by the 22nd that I would be thin enough to look SUPER in this shirt. I went out and bought a bra with clear straps to wear under it. I had planned on wearing shorts wtih it, but as the day got nearer I could see that with it being a night game I would have to wear jeans and bring a sweatshirt with me. So game day comes, I come home from work early and race around getting ready and I look in the mirror. Not only were my favorite pair of size 6 jeans that I used to wear really uncomfortable, but they came up very high on my waist to my belly button and of course, the waist on these jeans was very small and had extra room for bootie and thighs. I have NO bootie or thighs so my waist was VERY tight and my rolls were being pushed up and made me look very uncomfortable. I asked my husband if we had time to stop at Old Navy to pick up a new pair of jeans. We hurried through the store, got a few different pairs, and I raced to the dressing rooms, found an awesome pair of stretch, straight leg, low waisted jeans that I LOVE!!! whooo-hoo.. only lost 15 minutes out of our day in the process too!! I stopped at my parents house and changed and looked at myself in the mirror and wasn't totally satisfied but felt much better and much more comfortable! (the old jeans were actually make red marks on my belly). Anyway, over the weekend I was at my mom's house helping her with her garage sale and she is telling my aunt the story about me in the mirror and it was sooooo funny the way that she told the story. I was laughing sooo hard and my aunt was hysterically laughing! It was great. So I guess others see me, but I don't!!!

GGGGOOOOOOOAAAAAALLLLLLLL!!!!!!

WOW, TODAY I MET GOAL, AND I THINK I'M STILL IN SHOCK BECAUSE I'M NO WHERE NEAR AS EXCITED AS I THOUGHT I'D BE. We'll anyway, it took me 2 months past my goal date to get to goal, but here I am FINALLY!!

Stop the presses, Stop the parties....

I'm not at goal... but I did lose, I'm at 151.4 which makes puts me at a 34.8lb WW loss, which rocks and a total combined loss of.... 51.6 lbs!! WHOO-HOO.. thought I would share this pic of me and my husband at wedding he stood up in on July 16th. Okay.. so hopefully I'll be reporting back next week with the weight of 150. I'm determined now baby!

shhh, I might be at goal!!!

Welllllllll...... I got on the scale this am at home just for a look see and low and behold, there it was 151. My original ww goal is 150, and I'm standing there in my pajama shirt thinking, wtf??? You wouldn't believe how fast that pj shirt came off! lol! I jumped back on and there it was.... OH GLORIOUS 150!!! whoo-hooo. My official weigh in is tomorrow morning at my work out place so I'm trying my best to stay on plan, drink my water, eat my veggies, and get that awesome 150 weigh in!! Okay... well, stay tuned, I'll be posting again if it's true!! :)

32.4lbs finally past the plateau from hell!

ahhhh it was a great weekend. Sat am I get on the scale and I'm at 153.8 which not only broke my plateau finally, it put's me at a 32.4 lb loss! Whoo-hoo... and it also puts me at 50lbs lost since first starting to lose weight in 2004. Weight Watchers has a saying "nothing tastes as good as thin feels" boy is that true! Tim and I went to Gary and Carrie's wedding this weekend and I wore a fabulous dress and shoes, and had tons of compliments. Everybody was complimenting me on my dress, my weight. I had women I didn't know coming to talk to me about my dress, our friends were not only giving me compliments but most of them made comments to Tim about me! That was so great to hear!

Over the cusp of the 30lb MOUNTAIN!

Okay.. as of 6/11/05 I was 155.6 which put me at a 30.6 loss! Who-hoo for me!!! Carolyn is at a 32.4lb loss! that is awesome!!! I took about a month hiatus from ww because we had so many weddings, birthdays, showers, graduations, and of coure memorial day weekend. I wasn't getting through a memorial day without a cheesy brat! lol! Okay.. so here I am now.. back on program since 5/31/05 and not losing very well.. and of course, my weigh in is tomorrow morning, and I just took my last bc pill, therefore, I won't see any loss this week.. but next week... let's hope that we'll see a good loss! Can't wait!

29.4 lbs... almost at a 30lb loss!!

Well... got back from my trip to AZ and I didn't too as well as I planned on my trip. I've kind of extended my vacation until next Monday just to give myself some extra time to reacclamate myself. I weighed in this am and I'm at 156.8 which means I did lose weight on my trip. Not much.. but it's a loss... well.. looking back at my last post it seems that I've not even lost 5 full lbs this month.. oh well.. I'll be at 150 before I know it!! whoo-hoo for me.. I can't believe how fast the weight falls off.. and I've not even tried this week and I'm still losing.. I'm going to get back on track Monday and get myself to 150 ASAP!!