Friday, November 03, 2006

back in the groove

and feeling great! I've been journaling, running, walking, and I made it through Halloween without eating ANY yes I said ANY Halloween candy. I did start making these great 1 pt peanut butter cups that are soooo yummy! I'm back down to 144 nekkid on my home scale, so to me that's great. I'm getting really anxious about the holidays but I'm making plans so I can control myself this year... let's just hope I can follow through!

Have a great weekend planned! Tonight walking, then Dylan is being dropped off and we're having spaghetti with garlic bread for dinner. I'm weighing in tomorrow morning as long as I don't gain because of TOM starting Monday. Going to lunch with Mac, Jennifer, Jessica for my birthday at SWEET TOMATOES baby, then later going to meet up at Cubby Bear for drinks with some old friends. Sunday is Adam's birthday party and football! Sounds like a yummy weekend to me!

Monday, October 30, 2006

up UP & AWAY...

ughh my 30th birthday totally fucked me.. really it did.. I gained back a ton of weight, I can't even say how much for sure becuase I was down to 141 on my scale at home (nekkid in the morning) and I weighed in last Monday the 23rd and was up to 151.4... only .6 of a lb away from having to pay. I *was* thinking about going that night.. GOOD THING I DIDN'T... geez.. so back on the wagon I got and the scale has been creeping down s-l-o-w-l-y! ughh totally frusterating. I didn't weigh in Saturday morning because I had eaten bad on Friday night so we'll see what next Saturday morning brings.. ughh not so good either, considering I'll be getting my period that week.. well anyway.. I'm back on the wagon and planning my way through the holidays...

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

running with my son

I took Thurs/Fri off last week and Mon/Tue off this week to hang out with Dylan because he is off of school. I planned his catscan & braces appts but I really wanted to just hang out with him. As always we really haven't done much. Yesterday we went to a movie, made his fav chicken parm for dinner, then went to the gym together. As we were on the treadmills running together I realized I never really worked out with my parents. I think I'm making some changes for him by working out with him.

Monday, October 23, 2006

back to the freakin drawing board.....


Okay not fun... a month ago exactly today I weighed in at 144 fully clothed etc at WW.. yeah umm today... 151.4! I would have had to pay if I had been 152, there goes my little cushion straight to hell in a handbasket because of my freakin 30th birthday! yikes.. turning 30 sucks! lol! Nahhh turning 30 was cool, Timmy threw me a surprise party for family/friends which got wrecked EXACTLY 24 hours before the party... one of Tim's (now) ex-buddies called me to ask why I was ticked at him and why he didn't get an invite to my birthday party.. f'in ass!

Heather, here is the PORSCHE 1978 928

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

I'm bringing SEXY back!

So I was just out walking with one of my WW/workout buddies and she was telling me that at WW this week they were talking about what song is their "anthem" their weight loss. I guess some answers were "I'm a little teapot" or "unwritten" etc. So I have WW on Saturday so I have 3 full days to think of my WW anthem. At first I was thinking TAMIA, "theres a stranger in my house" meaning there was a stranger in my house (my body) who just didn't give a shit about my body. I was abusive to it, didn't respect it, etc. But then I was thinking of the song Unforgettable meaning I will never forget the fat girl I once was and what she taught me and my WW journey was unforgettable and that is the reason I won't gain the weight back... I can't forget. THEN, I get in my Porsche and BLAMO, Justin Timberlake's BRINGING SEXY BACK is blaring and I'm like "yeah baby, I'm bringing sexy back" So THAT my friends is my WW anthem!

Thursday, September 21, 2006

my ww story, front page of the daily herald TODAY!!

Inspiring weight loss earns woman a prize
BY LARISSA CHINWAH
Daily Herald Staff Writer
Posted Thursday, September 21, 2006

Melissa B**** thought she was doing everything possible to shed unwanted pounds.

But no matter how often the 29-year-old Carpentersville resident worked out and no matter how many Slim Fast shakes she drank for breakfast or Lean Cuisine meals she ate for lunch, she said she could not lose any weight.

Now, more than 18 months after joining Weight Watchers, Bodzioch has lost 42 pounds. Her transformation earned her a second-place prize in the Weight Watchers Inspiring Stories of the Year contest.

The contest, now in its eighth year, draws entries from thousands of men and women across the nation, each with their own unique personal journey to their epiphany - when they realized something needed to change.

Entrants were required to tell their weight-loss story in 150 words or less, describing health improvements and benefits of weight loss, as well as elements of the program that kept them on track. With more than 40,000 applicants from across the country, Bodzioch said she did not expect to be selected.

(COURTESY OF MELISSA B*****) Melissa B*****, 29, who has dropped 42 pounds on the program, was recently named one of 128 second-prize winners in Weight Watchers Inspiring Stories of the Year contest.


(COURTESY OF MELISSA B*****) Melissa B***** weighed 186 pounds before joining Weight Watchers in January 2005.


"I was in my boss's office shrieking at the top of my lungs. I was so excited," Bodzioch said of her reaction to the announcement.

Even those who worked closest with Melissa in helping her lose weight said her selection was surprising.

"I have been a leader for five years and I have never had any of my members win a contest," said Sally South, a leader at the Crystal Lake Weight Watchers center. "It is cool that she won second place. Her story was very inspiring."

Melissa's success did not come easily. Although her weight fluctuated growing up, her battle with weight hit a wall once she stopped developing. She tried the various diets, such as the Zone 6, and worked out vigorously. After eight months of working out with no visible results, Melissa said a friend asked her to write down everything she ate.

Bodzioch said she was consuming fewer than 1,200 calories a day and her body was in starvation mode.

"I told my friend if I am going to write down everything I eat, I might as well be doing Weight Watchers," Melissa said.

That's exactly what she did.

In January 2005, Melissa hesitantly joined the Weight Watchers program for the first time, weighing in at 186 pounds.

Although she said she lost about 2 pounds a week on the program that assigns points to food and sets daily and weekly limits, Melissa said she quit the program and tried to do it alone.

"The meetings were crucial to me," she said. "I went on other diets but I hit a plateau on them. I stalled for eight or nine months."

Having a member drop out is the most frustrating part of the program, South said.

"The one thing I tell people is that there is no quitting, no quitting, no quitting," South said. "I have to keep them coming even when they have had a bad week because the rest of us have probably all had a bad week, too."

Within a year, Melissa rejoined the program. Melissa said she is now well below her weight goal and the benefits are countless.

"I have never been able to run and now I can run three miles without problems," said Melissa, who now weighs 144 pounds. "I can go shopping and not worry about something not fitting. I often take clothing in that is a few sizes too big. It is still amazing to me."

But reaching her goal doesn't mean she is satisfied. "This is a thing for life," she said. "I still do it every day. It is not a one-time fix."

Friday, August 25, 2006

YOU ARE READING THE BLOG OF THE 2ND PLACE WINNER IN A RECENT NATIONWIDE WW CONTEST

YUP THAT'S ME!! whoo-hooo I got the call at work from my WW leader who I originally thought was Sally from my old work out place.. I couldn't figure out why she was calling me and why she was talking about WW! lol! ooops.. so I don't even know what I've won I heard something about $150 for something and an overnight stay at a hotel or something... other than that.. she asked me to come talk at a few meetings tomorrow and she said she was calling the media.. radio, newspaper, tv interviews to come...?? we'll see!

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Salad envy... yes I said SALAD

Anyway just gotta get this off my chest... I HATE WOMEN WITH THEIR PERFECT SALADS WITH RANCH DRESSING... okay.. I walk into the lunch room yesterday at work and one my co-workers is happily monching on her perfect out of a commercial salad that was swimming in full fat ranch dressing.. ughhh I haven't been eating very healthy lately so seeing a salad really gets me, I've actually been CRAVING salad.. go figure.. mybody knows what's good now... THEN I'm watching t.v. last night and that Hidden Valley Ranch commercial comes on with that girl eating her commercial perfect salad swimming in full fat Hidden Valley Ranch dressing as the world moves around her and she doesn't have a care in the world BECAUSE SHE'S EATING MY SALAD! ughhh anyway.. I made a salad today for lunch, however, it's no where commercial perfect looking and I barely had anything to put in it AND I have no full fat Ranchdressing... oh well...

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Spoke too soon....

Yeah so at the end of my last post everything was honkey dorey.. Well Tim wound up staying downtown after the Cubs game so I had to go get Dylan at his friends house in Mundelien. The cool thing was on the way home we were hungry to we went to Kobe (a japanese steak house) for dinner. I didn't feel bad spending the $75 because Tim had spent so much the last couple days on poker and what not. Anyway, so that sorta sucked to not get home Friday night until 8pm but whatever. It was a fun time with Dylan.

Saturday morning we woke up and went to Heather's 2nd birthday party. They had a ton of other kids there so it was a good time. Got my baby fix for the next few months! nice. Got home, layed around for awhile and then went down to Kris's golden birthday party, a party he's been planning for months.... got there, met some of his friends, hung out, then Tim and Dylan came down too. Anyway, the party was a ton of fun and them Tim and I started fighting, and I won't type everything out because all the details are just too long and complicated, but basically the cops were called etc. Doubt I'll forget this fight ever. So all in all... I spoke too soon because the shit hit the fan on Saturday!

Friday, July 28, 2006

Green lights all the way followed by I GOT HIT BY A BUS

So Thursday I got all green lights on the way to work... it was amazing.. Wed night I had an awesome night out to Carmalita's, then to Target, got home made my veggie pizza and still had time to walk the dog. So by the middle of Thursday I was waiting to get hit by a bus a train or for something horrible in my life to happen.. I think it was God's way of destressing me before what was to come next. And as it turns out in the end, it wasn't so bad, but during it sucked... read on... read on....


had a REALLY crappy night last night then got to work and it's been one of those days where I REALLY wish that I could have just called in sick but that would have totally *f'ed* all my co-workers and wouldn't have been fair. First I'm driving home on the phone w/ Dan he says I'll call you back okay.. whatever... get home start making the munchies for the poker game at my house and trying to get ready for the lakeland meeting at 7pm. Anyway I didn't know how to make the dip so I grab my phone and try to call Tim. It kept saying "call failed, retry?" so I kept hitting retry, nothing. ughhh what now. so I'm thinking I'm having the same problem some neighbors had the day before with Nextel but now it hit Cingular. So I tried to call my work phone and a few other numbers then I tried to text and nothing. So finally I walked down the street to find Glen to find out what time we were leaving, etc and Tim drives down the street and for the 2nd night in a row just starts yelling at me out his car window totally freaking out about me not answering my phone. the night before I was with Pam, if EITHER of us had heard my phone I would have answered it. It was in the backseat, we had the radio on and were laughing/chatting so of course I didn't hear it! WTF, anyway so I tell him my phone is broken then he starts bitching that I BROKE my phone, so then I say "okay, so Jeff AND Carolyn also BROKE their phone at the exact same time yesterday and it just magically started working again later???" whatever, @zz... so I find Glen we make plans, we leave for the meeting.. had a good meeting. Then I get home and the dog is barking etc at everybody so they are all bitching.. so I'm like "okay f'ers then why the heck don't one of you host other than Jeff and Adam?" and I walk away.. whatever jerks. Tim buys them beer always has food etc and they bitch about my dog.. don't f'in come then. Anyway.. I leave take Blue for a walk. Between having a pop at noon yesterday Wild Cherry Pepsi and the choc ice cream and cake I was still totally wired so I hung out online until around 11:30. I called cingular and they think it's my sim card so I'm basically without a phone until Tuesday.. although it has been working today, so whatever. IN the meantime, people are calling Tim asking what is wrong with me, why I called them and hung up.. my phone wasn't working I wasn't calling anyone! So basically my phone was making all sorts of calls to people I NEVER call for no reason.. nice huh? I hope I called Japan and rack up a sweet bill too! f'ers. anyway... so I lay down around midnight and was still wired so I watched tv... at that point I should have gotten my lazy butt out of bed and just taken some tylenol pm or benadryl or something.. nope I layed there until 2:30, then Tim comes in and I start talking to him in a normal voice and he's like "why are you still up" ummm the door kept slaming, water running, toliet flushing, dog barking PLUS even if I could have slept through that I couldn't because I'm wired from choc and caffeine from noon today! So we start fighting about how I'm so sensitive to everything LIKE I CAN CHANGE THAT ABOUT MY BODY? whatever. anyway.. so now it's 3 am, still can't sleep finally get up taken benadryl, put lotion on my feet (they felt dry), went to the bathroom, got some chapstick on etc layed back down. I asked Tim if he won/lost.. he just says "lost" how much? $60.. OKAY.. I got you $20 where did the other $40 come from "I stopped for $$ for the Cubs game tomorrow" oh yea, okay so you spent all $60 PLUS bought $26 worth of beer PLUS food.. so were out $100 for 5 hours of YOUR entertainment, PLUS you now have to get more $ out for the Cubs game. F'er. Okay so I finally fall asleep around 4am ish then I wake up at 6 and couldn't fall back to sleep. I fell back to sleep around 7ish and woke up at 7:30 and had to get out of bed. Walked into work and OF COURSE, the day from hell.. 2 same day purchases sitting on my desk.. okay no biggie.. but then I find out that all this work that one girl brought home didn't get done.. so that's like 4-5 hours more work that we have to all split between us and add to our normal load. PLUS it's end of the month so we always have to help with other stuff that has nothing to do with us, but whatever. I open my first file and it's a total wreck and the day has just continued like that.. the copier jamming, files changing at the last minute, broker's and title co's calling to freak out about nothing, etc.
Okay.. so how are your sinuses today? My boss's birthday was yesterday and she had a crappy night after she left work, THEN, she didn't sleep because of her sinuses. ughhh Then the girl across from me announces her husband was in the ER all night after falling 50 some odd feet off a scaffold at work with another guy and the other guy is blaming him for the accident, etc. Yeah, then we have a pregger almost due who is just a hormonal mess (her boyfriend is in Kuwait), then we have our funders that are constantly fueding because neither one of them does the job the same and they fight over who is doing what right.. I've warned my entire office just not to come near us today...

so in the end after all my huffing.. I've felt pretty alert all day, a little tired when I went home to let the dog out, but it's hot out. The copying/stacking was all done by 1pmish with the exception of a few hangover fundings. All my files are totally done, and it seems no more are coming tonight AND fundings are done. Oh and the best part.... I was going to have to pick up Dylan in Round Lake Beach but then he went to his friends in Mundelien (okay a little better) then Tim calls me and says he'll pick him up on his way home from the Cubs game! Ohhh yeah.. it's Friday and I'm going home right at 5 baby!

Friday, July 21, 2006

THAT GIRL IS A RUNNING FOOL, Blue the sweet potato begger, and ME AT MYSPACE?

HOLY CRAP! I SERIOUSLY CAN NOT BELIEVE I'VE DONE THIS! Last post I was talking about making 3 miles running a goal to make by Labor Day... well here I am here to say that I did it last night! It was totally amazing to me that I did it. I had the treadmill set at 5.2 mph the entire way and just listened to my mp3 player and beepoobed through 34 1/2 minutes of running. Totally amazing to me!

After I met Julie and her sister Connie to walk and we took this crazy "scenic tour" walking all weird ways, but it was fun and we found all sorts of junk along the way to talk and laugh about. I'm not going to the gym or walking tonight. I'm giving my feet a break, I have a blistery kind of thing on the back of my foot that makes it hard to walk so I went home and got some flip flops and feel so much better.

Also, have I told you about how much Blue loves sweet potato? He L♥VES them! When I was buying sweet potato fries from Trader Joes he would beg for them and I'd always give him a nibble, but the last few days I've had one with dinner and he always begs for scraps and everything I give him he gobbles right up!

Yup, that's right you read the header... I finally made an account/webpage on my space. WTF it's free and I've already touched base with a few girls that I haven't talked to since high school so that's been nice catching up with them.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

2 miles straight, my MP3 player, and my proudest conversation with Dylan

Well I ran a full 2 miles today without stopping, then walked a few miles with the girls at the park district. I wanted to stop at the gym and get in some running because I had an hour to kill before I had to meet the girls and I just kept pushing myself "another 1/4 mile" and eventually at 2 miles I felt like puking and I had to do some sort of cool down so I could get on the road to meet the girls! It was great, I feel great, all is well.

Tim bought us MP3 players for the gym and that's been fun loading songs on them and I really think they help me run and keep my mind off what I'm actually doing.......... K I L L I N G M Y S E L F!!!! ahh it's all good... I would really like to be at 3 miles by Labor Day as a part of my Labor of Love Challenge on the Lifetime WW chat room.

And lastly, which *should* be firstly, but it happened over last weekend so it's not quite as fresh as my run 2 hours ago... I had this awesome conversation with Dylan. I can talk to him about anything and the same goes with Leif too. I had that type of relationship with both my mom and my grandma so I cherish the fact that anything goes with my conversations with Dylan and Leif ESPECIALLY now that they are both getting older. Anyway the highlight of this particular conversation was me telling Dylan that he wasn't a mistake. I think it's important for him to know that his dad and I weren't two stupid kids that made an oops.. we WANTED him.

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

#3 coming right up!!

Yup, it's official, my cousin Heather announced today that she is 9 weeks preggers... So I get another new niece or nephew and I can't wait!

Weighed in over the weekend at 144.4... pretty exciting to me even though the scale at home said less the last week or so.

Also, I'm part of a "fit couple"!! At my Aunt Kathies party today Michael mentioned that both Tim and I look good and are a fit couple! I love it! I can't wait to use that at my WW meeting.

Monday, July 03, 2006

Can you supersize that for the old lady??? It's our anniversary!

yes I can actually imaging my husband pulling into the drive through and announcing that.. what a dope! lol! Tim and I went to work out (with Dylan) and we had such a good time together. We did my regular workout then part of Tim's regular work out. It was the first time in our 10 year relationship that we've ever worked out together other than walking or biking. It was actually very fun. After 2 hours at the gym we went over to the mall so Tim could buy some new gym shoes and we had lunch together.

Anyway that was Saturday and today it's raining and cold, not sure what we'll do today.. oh well. we'll figure out something.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

ahh not there yet.. and it's CARMALITA'S NIGHT

Got on the scale this am and it looks to be either a high 141 or 142. Okay.. I'm getting there.. couldn't drag my arse out of bed this morning... I guess all that running and walking yesterday did me in. We also had a thunderstorm around 5am that woke Tim up so he could go do some laundry... yeah, let's make more noise at 5am.. whatever.

Anyway tonight is CARMALITA'S NIGHT.. the night of pig fest for me!!

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

waiting for the sweet numbers 140 to pop up on that scale.....

ONE OF THESE DAYS, I'm going to hop up on that scale and the heavens will open up and there it will be... the angels will sing, harps will be harping, the whole nine yards.. and there it will be the real deal, not because I ate too many sugar free jelly beans, but because I literally worked my arse off. All the walking, running, circuit training, workout dvds, every carrott and spaghetti squash, will all add up to that one small number..... and then it will be the day of splurging... every Baker's Square within in the state of Illinois and maybe any in western Indiana and southern Wisconsin better put their French Silks in storage, spit on them, sell them all before I get there... because I'm eating them all... and then I will be 150lbs once again. Good WW attitude.. sure! ahhh not!