nothing to report....

nothing to report... seriously.. Tim is sick with what I had, half my office is sick as well, ummm I dunno if I wrote that I got on the news on my trip... long story.. basically we saw a few news crews at the airport the day we left and they came and interviewed me... what else.. Blue will be home in a month, and that's great because I am really starting to miss him.. it's horrible. I think going to see him was why I miss him.. because last year he went with us and came home with us.. this time I left him there.. very hard.

Nicky Scargill found me on myspace, so that's cool! Someone I keep losing touch with.. seems to be a ton of changes in her life since I last talk to her so I'm curious to hear what's all happened and how it played out.

this excuse takes THE CAKE....

Yeah.. so here it is... I announced some time ago my cousin Heather was preggers with her 3rd.. yup.. Irina was born on Valentines Day... a whopping 10lbs 10oz after pooping.. so bascially a 11lb child... guess there was no world rockin or Valentines Dinner for her hubbie that night!

just got back from AZ. We left earlier because our flight got cancelled, then got back late last night.. back to work tomorrow.. the trip was eventful, as usual, for our family.. we did the usual pool, food, pool, outing, food, mall, etc. VERY long story, my sister & younger nephew wound up coming home early, but we got to keep Leif there. We still had a good time just hanging out.. beats being in Chicago at work in the cold!

Went to my hoochie mama store... they were closing in less than an hour and I only found 2 things I wanted to buy and they really didn't even fit right.. not sure why I even did buy them.. oh well..

The SISTERHOOD rules.... 1 strike YOU'RE OUT!

yeahhhhh so my sister's exs new girlfriend decides to call my sister yesterday.. yeah not the best of situations.. but my sister actually did talk to her and I'm glad she did.. Michael is cheating on her too.. like we said what 6-7 months ago when I saw him with some other woman... yeah.. okay.. so it's a co-worker of hers and his current live in girlfriend wants my sister to be there for her.. umm where the fuck were you when I needed you and I was going through this??? ohhh yeah you were fucking my husband! that's right! hey, once you fuck a married man... you are kicked to the sisterhood curb. see ya...

it's not over.....

Some of you may know about our big fight at the end of July. It was seriously over that night.. our marriage, our lives together, everything we had worked 10 years for was done and I could have walked away with confidence that I had done the right thing. I packed some clothes up, grabbed my dog and walked out the door.. fighting with Tim for another couple hours after that point was never part of the plan, or calling the cops, and I'm sure in retrospect not any of the sequence that happened that night was party of anyone's plan except the BIG PLAN. Everything happens for a reason.. seeing my sister walk away from her marriage and move on, Michelle walk away from her marriage, and a few other friends who recently just broke finally walked away from a failing relationship after YEARS gave me strength in the realization that I COULD DO IT. I could be on my own, I would be okay, I would survive, I would thrive, and have less regrets. There is enough time after death to worry about regrets, lets not waste anymore time on earth doing just that. I recently went to dinner with some girlfriends and told them the story and then last night I watched the movie "the affair" and everything the wife in that movie said to her husband was me to a T... Everything the husbands french co-worker said to him was our relationship to a T.. they just don't see... but here I am at Valentines Day this year hoping that next year I won't be feeling the same as I have the last 10 years in this relationship. So here it is.. my anthem for my relationship with my husband in the now.. it's not over...

Chris Daughtry It's Not Over Lyrics
It's Not OverI was blown away
What could I sayIt all seemed to make sense.
You've taken away everything
And I can't deal with that.

I try to see the good in life.
But good things in life are hard to find.
I'll blow it away, blow it away
Can we make this something good?
(Well I'll try to do to it right this time around)

Let's start over,
Try to do it right this time around
It's not over
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killin me
But you're the only oneIt's not over.

I've taken all I can takeAnd I cannot wait
We're wasting too much time
Being strong and holding on
Can't let it bring us down
My life with you means everything
So I won't give up that easilyI'll blow it away, blow it away

Can we make this something good?
Cause it's all misunderstood(Well I'll try to do to it right this time around)
Let's start over,
Try to do it right this time around
It's not overCause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killin me
But you're the only one
It's not over.
We can't let this get away
Let it out, let it out
Don't get caught up in yourself
Let it out.Let's start over
Well try to do to it right this time around
Its not over
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killin me
But you're the only oneIt's not over.
Lets start over Its not over
This love is killin me But you're the only one
It's not over

the angels are on a low hummmmmm

yup.. finally got under 152.. thank god.. I can eat on our trip! lol! ;) the trick?? yeah working out less.. go figure.

dropping like a lead fart...

wellllll there are several things dropping like a lead fart around me... this weekend was a total bust.. from getting Tim's Christmas gift which wound up not fitting him, to going out for Michelle's bachelorette party where she wound up sick in the bathroom for 2 hours, to the first 12 seconds of the superbowl giving us total false hope and the Bears choking allowing the colts to win, to the fact that I actually won $200 on the superbowl.. not the way I wanted to... to the way that Tim is not on speaking terms with anyone in the world this morning... yeah that's really fun.... what else.. oh to my weight.. I've been struggling with for the past month and it's just not dropping this time around. This weekend the scale actually read 152.6 then I got back on and it said 154.4.. I can't win.. I'm going to take it easy this week.. just do mall walking.. and I was going to be good this week.. but I brought all of my extra superbowl food to work.. and yeah I've been eating it. So there you have it.. the weekend was a total bust, I can't wait to get on that plane in 8 days... SUN SUN SUN here I come!