it's not over.....

Some of you may know about our big fight at the end of July. It was seriously over that night.. our marriage, our lives together, everything we had worked 10 years for was done and I could have walked away with confidence that I had done the right thing. I packed some clothes up, grabbed my dog and walked out the door.. fighting with Tim for another couple hours after that point was never part of the plan, or calling the cops, and I'm sure in retrospect not any of the sequence that happened that night was party of anyone's plan except the BIG PLAN. Everything happens for a reason.. seeing my sister walk away from her marriage and move on, Michelle walk away from her marriage, and a few other friends who recently just broke finally walked away from a failing relationship after YEARS gave me strength in the realization that I COULD DO IT. I could be on my own, I would be okay, I would survive, I would thrive, and have less regrets. There is enough time after death to worry about regrets, lets not waste anymore time on earth doing just that. I recently went to dinner with some girlfriends and told them the story and then last night I watched the movie "the affair" and everything the wife in that movie said to her husband was me to a T... Everything the husbands french co-worker said to him was our relationship to a T.. they just don't see... but here I am at Valentines Day this year hoping that next year I won't be feeling the same as I have the last 10 years in this relationship. So here it is.. my anthem for my relationship with my husband in the now.. it's not over...

Chris Daughtry It's Not Over Lyrics
It's Not OverI was blown away
What could I sayIt all seemed to make sense.
You've taken away everything
And I can't deal with that.

I try to see the good in life.
But good things in life are hard to find.
I'll blow it away, blow it away
Can we make this something good?
(Well I'll try to do to it right this time around)

Let's start over,
Try to do it right this time around
It's not over
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killin me
But you're the only oneIt's not over.

I've taken all I can takeAnd I cannot wait
We're wasting too much time
Being strong and holding on
Can't let it bring us down
My life with you means everything
So I won't give up that easilyI'll blow it away, blow it away

Can we make this something good?
Cause it's all misunderstood(Well I'll try to do to it right this time around)
Let's start over,
Try to do it right this time around
It's not overCause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killin me
But you're the only one
It's not over.
We can't let this get away
Let it out, let it out
Don't get caught up in yourself
Let it out.Let's start over
Well try to do to it right this time around
Its not over
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killin me
But you're the only oneIt's not over.
Lets start over Its not over
This love is killin me But you're the only one
It's not over